Sweet, sweet sugar from the cane

I feel so naughty! This morning I'm having oatmeal with whole milk and sugar to sweeten it. Not sugar substitute, mind you, but the real deal!

I'm still really struggling with getting all my points in. That must sound really stupid. I'm here because I eat too much (well, one of the reasons), but I'm paying attention to what I'm eating and making better choices, so I'm not hungry all the time. Keep in mind, it's only because I'm so heavy that I get a boat load of points. Just how many daily points am I allowed, you ask? Ugh, I really didn't want to admit it, but I promised myself when I started this blog that I was going to be completely open and honest, no more hiding in the corners, remember? Okay, here goes....I'm supposed to eat 42 points a day. To put that into perspective, when I get down to where I want to be and trying to maintain it, I will be eating 23-25 points a day, and that's still somewhat generous.

I know there will be days when I eat all my 42 points and wish I had more, but for right now, my struggle is to get them all in, and eat them earlier in the day. So that's why the whole milk and sugar for breakfast. The other night it was about 8 PM and I still had 20 points left for the day. I was talking to my 16 year old son, Davis, about it, wondering if I was going to try to eat them, or just let it go for the day. He left the room and a few minutes later he brought me a HUGE bowl of ice cream. I said, "Holy cow, how much do you think you've got there?" He gave me a cute little smile and said, "20 points worth." I ended up putting half of it back, and still had to eat something else. I know it sounds crazy, but I have learned that it really is just as important to eat all your points as it is to not go over them.

So my goal this week is to get my milk and oil in early in the day, that will help with the points. I think I'm also sort of stockpiling my points throughout the day so that I will be sure to have enough, but that obviously isn't a problem right now. I don't know that I'm doing it intentionally, it might be a habit from when I was on Weight Watchers before. It's so funny to me that my problem right now is too many points. How's that for irony?